Rejecting Matt numerous times in the past never did anything, I always valued our friendship and didn’t want to lose it, but Is this feels like a literally impossible to un-fuck situation.
No matter what I pick, I still fucking lose, why am I stuck between losing some of my closest friends for someone I actually like for once. I take back what I jokingly said about how I might be losing a finger because life was too good to me lately, I feel like I’m getting my heart shredded to pieces and shoved into a fucking blender set to idiot puree.
Now all I gotta do is tell Dylan and see how that plays out and I can rot away with a clear conscience.
Honesty fucking blows man, but I’d rather be dead than lie to my friends and act like nothing is happening to spare their feelings.
I’m so sorry.
DEEP WORLD SEA 